Perplexed Feelings!!

 You messaged me 'Good Morning'.

My reply made me seem busy.

You are right, I was distorting.

Did I act silly?

I don't know,

what I did was right or wrong.

I had to show

since it had been long.

Time has changed,

so have the situations.

And I am perplexed

with my expectations.

I do love you

but don't know what to do.

It's been a while

since I heard from you.

I didn't chat that very day

though I wished to have some say.

But then I realized something,

that made me reply nothing.

I didn't wish to hurt myself.

You know, my presumptions have spell

and so when I want to be fresh

I use these papers and pens.

I am bewildered, I swear.

I don't want you to mess.

What I wish is just to yell

with some tears since no one cares.

I am trying to stop my steps

to protect myself from emotional depths.

Why at times feelings act as nightmares?

Maybe, I need some love for myself.

Lately, I have been stressed.

I know you can guess.

These are my expectations,

which makes me crap.

I need some time,

to make myself right.

The last thing I want to add;

Are expectations bad?

                           -Advaita Singh!

Things were Never Better!

 

With you, things were never better.

Though I thought with time they'll not matter.

There was time I felt things were finner,

but it never happened, instead got messier.

Yes, I desired to know you,

but they led me to change you to new.

Although I didn't want to change your say

or myself in any which way.

I don't want to put any barrier,

maybe I am possessive so act superior.

Knowing you is not easy

and my desire makes me seem creepy.

 I know 'you, not loving me' is not your fault,

but at times taking other's fault can exalt one.

Ya, I wished to give up

but my desire acted as a cover-up.

                            -Advaita Singh