Perplexed Feelings!!

 You messaged me 'Good Morning'.

My reply made me seem busy.

You are right, I was distorting.

Did I act silly?

I don't know,

what I did was right or wrong.

I had to show

since it had been long.

Time has changed,

so have the situations.

And I am perplexed

with my expectations.

I do love you

but don't know what to do.

It's been a while

since I heard from you.

I didn't chat that very day

though I wished to have some say.

But then I realized something,

that made me reply nothing.

I didn't wish to hurt myself.

You know, my presumptions have spell

and so when I want to be fresh

I use these papers and pens.

I am bewildered, I swear.

I don't want you to mess.

What I wish is just to yell

with some tears since no one cares.

I am trying to stop my steps

to protect myself from emotional depths.

Why at times feelings act as nightmares?

Maybe, I need some love for myself.

Lately, I have been stressed.

I know you can guess.

These are my expectations,

which makes me crap.

I need some time,

to make myself right.

The last thing I want to add;

Are expectations bad?

                           -Advaita Singh!

I thought, You had a crush!!

 

Remember? the first day when you saw me,

I felt you have a crush.

That was the biggest problem to be,

since I took it for a rush.    

Our eyes used to meet,

and you pretended to be sweet.

I used to show as if you are a creep,

that was my way to prevent being a freak.

You used to take a cycle,

I used to take a walk..

Maybe you never felt,

but I tried to have a talk.

'I'll seem to be confident",

at least that's what I thought.

I gave you a compliment,

that's where things went wrong.

You told to your friend,

soon it became a trend.

I was treated bad.

'I trusted you', that made me sad.

I thought you had a crush,

but I was in a rush.

Maybe I too had a lust,

that turned me into dust.

                            _Advaita Singh!