I thought, You had a crush!!

 

Remember? the first day when you saw me,

I felt you have a crush.

That was the biggest problem to be,

since I took it for a rush.    

Our eyes used to meet,

and you pretended to be sweet.

I used to show as if you are a creep,

that was my way to prevent being a freak.

You used to take a cycle,

I used to take a walk..

Maybe you never felt,

but I tried to have a talk.

'I'll seem to be confident",

at least that's what I thought.

I gave you a compliment,

that's where things went wrong.

You told to your friend,

soon it became a trend.

I was treated bad.

'I trusted you', that made me sad.

I thought you had a crush,

but I was in a rush.

Maybe I too had a lust,

that turned me into dust.

                            _Advaita Singh!

Things were Never Better!

 

With you, things were never better.

Though I thought with time they'll not matter.

There was time I felt things were finner,

but it never happened, instead got messier.

Yes, I desired to know you,

but they led me to change you to new.

Although I didn't want to change your say

or myself in any which way.

I don't want to put any barrier,

maybe I am possessive so act superior.

Knowing you is not easy

and my desire makes me seem creepy.

 I know 'you, not loving me' is not your fault,

but at times taking other's fault can exalt one.

Ya, I wished to give up

but my desire acted as a cover-up.

                            -Advaita Singh

I want to distant you!

 I want to distant you.

It's not because of you but because of me.

I think what's between us is not meant to be.

I don't want our friendship to break into a fight.

So it's better to distant, at least for a while.

It's not easy but I have to,

if not for me then at least for you.

What I am is something you'll not understand.

For it, you don't even have to pretend.

I am complex like a puzzle.

At times I can even be trouble.

But I don't want you to tussle,

though together we can chuckle.

What I say is ironic of what I do.

There was a time when I wanted you to know me too.

Today is a time I am tired of it, 

So I feel it's better to distant not to quit.

You may say let's sit and talk.

"But I am serious," I'll say, wishing I was not.

                                         -Advaita Singh!