Perplexed Feelings!!

 You messaged me 'Good Morning'.

My reply made me seem busy.

You are right, I was distorting.

Did I act silly?

I don't know,

what I did was right or wrong.

I had to show

since it had been long.

Time has changed,

so have the situations.

And I am perplexed

with my expectations.

I do love you

but don't know what to do.

It's been a while

since I heard from you.

I didn't chat that very day

though I wished to have some say.

But then I realized something,

that made me reply nothing.

I didn't wish to hurt myself.

You know, my presumptions have spell

and so when I want to be fresh

I use these papers and pens.

I am bewildered, I swear.

I don't want you to mess.

What I wish is just to yell

with some tears since no one cares.

I am trying to stop my steps

to protect myself from emotional depths.

Why at times feelings act as nightmares?

Maybe, I need some love for myself.

Lately, I have been stressed.

I know you can guess.

These are my expectations,

which makes me crap.

I need some time,

to make myself right.

The last thing I want to add;

Are expectations bad?

                           -Advaita Singh!

Rain, I love this day!!⛈☔

 Rain in itself is an emotion.

For some emotion of love and romance,

for others emotion of sadness by chance,

but for me, it's an emotion of calmness, I stance.

In those time of rain, 

electricity goes away,

cold winds began to slay.

Forcing me to say;

I love this day.

In those times of rain,

days seem to be dull

but the breeze acts as pull.

Plants began to swing,

as if in spring.

Forcing me to say,

I love this day.

Sitting by the window,

I am writing this info.

 I am so ecstatic

as well as calm.

That things seem to be pathetic,

along with some charm.

I was in delight,

until it was dazzling,

but now I am in such a plight

that I am frustrated with this storming.

It's raining heavily,

making things gravelly.

Still forcing me to say,

I love this day.

Now I'll have to clean up,

all the mess made by a cloudburst.

Still such was the case,

I could look at my face,

forcing me to say;

I love this day.

                  -Advaita Singh!

I thought, You had a crush!!

 

Remember? the first day when you saw me,

I felt you have a crush.

That was the biggest problem to be,

since I took it for a rush.    

Our eyes used to meet,

and you pretended to be sweet.

I used to show as if you are a creep,

that was my way to prevent being a freak.

You used to take a cycle,

I used to take a walk..

Maybe you never felt,

but I tried to have a talk.

'I'll seem to be confident",

at least that's what I thought.

I gave you a compliment,

that's where things went wrong.

You told to your friend,

soon it became a trend.

I was treated bad.

'I trusted you', that made me sad.

I thought you had a crush,

but I was in a rush.

Maybe I too had a lust,

that turned me into dust.

                            _Advaita Singh!

Things were Never Better!

 

With you, things were never better.

Though I thought with time they'll not matter.

There was time I felt things were finner,

but it never happened, instead got messier.

Yes, I desired to know you,

but they led me to change you to new.

Although I didn't want to change your say

or myself in any which way.

I don't want to put any barrier,

maybe I am possessive so act superior.

Knowing you is not easy

and my desire makes me seem creepy.

 I know 'you, not loving me' is not your fault,

but at times taking other's fault can exalt one.

Ya, I wished to give up

but my desire acted as a cover-up.

                            -Advaita Singh

I want to distant you!

 I want to distant you.

It's not because of you but because of me.

I think what's between us is not meant to be.

I don't want our friendship to break into a fight.

So it's better to distant, at least for a while.

It's not easy but I have to,

if not for me then at least for you.

What I am is something you'll not understand.

For it, you don't even have to pretend.

I am complex like a puzzle.

At times I can even be trouble.

But I don't want you to tussle,

though together we can chuckle.

What I say is ironic of what I do.

There was a time when I wanted you to know me too.

Today is a time I am tired of it, 

So I feel it's better to distant not to quit.

You may say let's sit and talk.

"But I am serious," I'll say, wishing I was not.

                                         -Advaita Singh!